and it shall be bestowed upon you, the star which you have longed for —
oh, fly me to the star
please stop the clock in this moment
First thing's first ...
general rules
what is not tolerated;
transphobic/homophobic/
lesbophobic/biphobic etc
racist
are a MAP / pedophile
consume pedophilic content
generally bigoted
please cw ...
alcohol
grooming
needles
spiders/arachnids
twitter user @quakesama (read second link for info)
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★. “ hello, I'm kris/peachy, krissie if we're close. i'm 23, & use they/them.i'm an artist with commissions open a good majority of the time. the art displayed here is my own !it's not 100%, but if you leave a tip on my KOFI with a request I might take it ! no promises, though <3I sell my revue starlight redraws as buttons on redbubble !
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My experience with quake/dai.
cw; grooming, exploitation online of a minor, suicide
it's hard to start something like this. it's so incredibly hard to say what i want to say, & have taken years to understand how this man has hurt me, & exploited me. i am only writing this due to the fact that quake, as i will be calling him, has begun to surface around in places that i see him. this will be used, primarily, as a way to explain why i am uncomfortable around him, & why he sends me into panics when i see his user.this is heavily detailed down, to save time. despite that, this is a long read, there is a TLDR.
this is still messy, & im sorry if its hard to read.i was 13/14 when i met quake, more known as dai back then, in the madoka magica rp scene on tumblr. he roleplayed as an original character, daisuke, while i roleplayed as a minor character (in both senses), momo. since she was canonically around 6 in canon, i bumped her age to be 11/12 to be around my age, so i could understand & write her better.quakes age has always alluded me, i can never remember for whatever reason. i do know he's a fair few years older than me, i want to say four or five. regardless, he did eventually befriend me online. we developed a friendship, in which the majority of it was in fact me talking him down from the edge. though, we did earnestly have fun times together, though many of the times were also plagued with NSFW roleplays, that included me, a minor, & a minor character.
The first public risque RP on my tumblr account happened around 2013, before I turned 13 on the first of feb. they were explicit roleplays in DMs on skype. There was also many accounts of emotional manipulation, whether intentional or not, on the feed in real time that friends from that time remember seeing.
one instance included posting a picture of self harm on his page.we naturally drifted apart when i was around the age of 17/18, i was busy graduating & had also outgrown the RP scene for pmmm, as i grew anxious everytime i logged in. he contributed to it, but there were other reasons as well. though, around 2016 he had actually confessed to me, when i was a minor. luckily, i was dating at the time. around this time he also found out my real name & found my facebook page i used for family & irl friends. i still have the friend request pending because i rarely used it back then, & rarely use it now.
i still dont know how he got it.there are ... hours of details during these times. but he recently re-appeared online, there was a slew of drama that included him dropping my @ & my discord for a bit, before quickly deleting it. i wont go into deep detail here, or ever if i can help it. i only really feel semi comfortable now talking about it. it did involve sexualizing the character i used to RP as, & finding all of my socials on twitter. it sparked me realizing how much it all affected me.i still get sick thinking about the RPs, the emotional distraught i felt & continue to feel. everything still affects me to this day & i struggle with oversexualization of myself, accepting what he did to me was in fact grooming, how i manage myself in relationships & how im viewed in them, alongside a slew of other feelings i cant express even if i wanted to.
this is why i ask that if you associate with him, or follow him, to please not follow me.although i do not want anyone to go after him. i believe wholeheartedly people can change, & i want to believe he can as well. but that doesnt undo what happened to me, or how i feel about him. i do no longer forgive him, but that's on myself to work on, & not for others to hold against him. i just cannot be associated with people associated with him, is all.**TLDR; https://twitter.com/i/user/1177049531260776448 (@TheRealQuake, @GothicaO, where he is the artist of & @bleh123454 , a likely alt, but I can't be certain )groomed me when i was younger, resurfaced recently & brought it to the public while playing victim, & i realized how much he had hurt me. i do not want anyone to go after him since i believe he can change, & forgiveness is something for me to work on to heal, but I cannot interact with those associated. **